Hullo all!
It's time for Camp NaNo April. It begins in less than a week, and I'm really excited. First, an explanation of what it is for those of you who don't already know.
Camp NaNo is a writing challenge in the month of April. Unlike the one in November, you get to set your word count where you want it rather than being forced to do 50k. We get writing "cabins" if we so desire, made up of around twelve other writers.
My goal is something like 75k. I'll be entering my current book into the contest in an effort to finish it this month. The next step would be to send it off to proofies and get it published.
First cabin assignments were today, but I opted out of mine. I didn't know the people, so I've resubmitted my cabin preferences along with a few others who didn't get good cabins. (Or at least they didn't know the others.)
I kinda outlined my novel in November, but that was a little twisted and brief. But...that would be off topic and, knowing how I love to stay on topic, that'll be in another post. Okay, okay, I rarely ever stay on topic, but still, that will be in another post...hopefully sometime in the near future.
Until next time!
~Kya
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Forever
I decided to share this short story with you because it's my birthday (or will be by the time you're reading this). It's more personal than Redemption, and it's not just for girls, just as Redemption isn't for guys. I just decided to use a female point of view for this one. I wrote this one with many sighs and a few tears. It's as much for myself as it is for those who inspired the story.
Yes, you may share it if you so desire, but in the occasion that you do, please link back to my blog. Thanks. I'd like to hear your feedback as always, so please, comment away.
Yes, you may share it if you so desire, but in the occasion that you do, please link back to my blog. Thanks. I'd like to hear your feedback as always, so please, comment away.
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I'm huddled against a tree, hardly shelter from the pelting rain. He is coming, and I don't want to be in his presence.
He gave me my dress a long time ago, trusting that I would keep care of it. I can't face him now. It's stained with every kind of dross imaginable.
I know that He knows exactly where I am, but desperately I hope against hope that just this once He doesn't. It's no use.
His footsteps draw nearer, and I cry out in fear. "No," I gasp. "Stay away! You don't want me!"
He comes closer. "Dearest daughter," He says, "do you know what I did because I wanted you?" He asks gently.
"No, no! That wasn't for me!"
He smiles, grief emanating from His gaze, yet pure love shining from His eyes. "Yes, it was."
I shake my head, trembling. He doesn't know what I've done. All the shame. All the scars. If he did, he wouldn't be wanting me.
"You don't know who I am, what I've done. If you did, you would never want me. I'm wretched, worthless. I've spoiled all you've given me." I know he does know all that, but that doesn't register until after the words have left me.
His smile only grows brighter. "Yes, you've done and are all that you say, but I still love you. I know who you are, and I know everything you've done. I knew everything you would do before you were alive, and I smiled and said, 'I want that one!' I knew you would hurt me, yet I died for you. I was beaten, shamed, and murdered for your sake.
How could you love me after all I've done to you?" I sob. "After all the pain I inflicted upon you? After all I've done to what you gave to me to protect? Why don't you reject me like I deserve?"He reaches towards me, and I flinch, expecting Him to punish me. Instead, His hands are gentle, and the smile on His face hasn't faded an inch.
"My dear child, you were forgiven long before you stained you gown you were to protect. I saw all that, yet I still wanted you. I died so your sins could be washed away."
Walls break down, and I begin to sob uncontrollably. I'm vaguely aware of Him drawing me into a warm embrace. The stains on my garments fade away, and I'm left with a dress of brilliant white. A broken whisper escapes my lips. "If you knew all I'd do you, how could you love me?"
He smiles sadly at me. "You still don't understand," He murmurs. "Little one, I did all that because I already loved you. It's been forgiven. Paid for."
Light dawns as the sun lifts over the horizon, and I blink in the light of morning. I hadn't even noticed the rain stop.
His voice is calm and quiet as He strokes my hair. "I know you will stumble. I know you will doubt me. You're still being made; you're still growing. No matter how you fall, no matter what you do, I will always love you. I've cleansed you with My blood and you are new. You are my child, I will never let you go."
He gave me my dress a long time ago, trusting that I would keep care of it. I can't face him now. It's stained with every kind of dross imaginable.
I know that He knows exactly where I am, but desperately I hope against hope that just this once He doesn't. It's no use.
His footsteps draw nearer, and I cry out in fear. "No," I gasp. "Stay away! You don't want me!"
He comes closer. "Dearest daughter," He says, "do you know what I did because I wanted you?" He asks gently.
"No, no! That wasn't for me!"
He smiles, grief emanating from His gaze, yet pure love shining from His eyes. "Yes, it was."
I shake my head, trembling. He doesn't know what I've done. All the shame. All the scars. If he did, he wouldn't be wanting me.
"You don't know who I am, what I've done. If you did, you would never want me. I'm wretched, worthless. I've spoiled all you've given me." I know he does know all that, but that doesn't register until after the words have left me.
His smile only grows brighter. "Yes, you've done and are all that you say, but I still love you. I know who you are, and I know everything you've done. I knew everything you would do before you were alive, and I smiled and said, 'I want that one!' I knew you would hurt me, yet I died for you. I was beaten, shamed, and murdered for your sake.
How could you love me after all I've done to you?" I sob. "After all the pain I inflicted upon you? After all I've done to what you gave to me to protect? Why don't you reject me like I deserve?"He reaches towards me, and I flinch, expecting Him to punish me. Instead, His hands are gentle, and the smile on His face hasn't faded an inch.
"My dear child, you were forgiven long before you stained you gown you were to protect. I saw all that, yet I still wanted you. I died so your sins could be washed away."
Walls break down, and I begin to sob uncontrollably. I'm vaguely aware of Him drawing me into a warm embrace. The stains on my garments fade away, and I'm left with a dress of brilliant white. A broken whisper escapes my lips. "If you knew all I'd do you, how could you love me?"
He smiles sadly at me. "You still don't understand," He murmurs. "Little one, I did all that because I already loved you. It's been forgiven. Paid for."
Light dawns as the sun lifts over the horizon, and I blink in the light of morning. I hadn't even noticed the rain stop.
His voice is calm and quiet as He strokes my hair. "I know you will stumble. I know you will doubt me. You're still being made; you're still growing. No matter how you fall, no matter what you do, I will always love you. I've cleansed you with My blood and you are new. You are my child, I will never let you go."
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So whatever you've done,
Whatever you'll do,
God knew it all yet he said,
"I want you!"
Now on this day, my birthday day,
I give a light to mark the way.
To my wonderful siblings in Christ,
A simple tool in a vic'try sure fight.
If you ever want a list'ning ear,
You've already found one: this soul right here.
This silly girl would love to help,
And she's totally not perfect herself!
I'll do my best and hear you out,
Together we can scout the route.
So shoot me an email, and we'll chatter away.
We'll fight together, come what may.
(kyalightwing@gmail.com)
Thanks for reading!
~Kya/Anala'ya/Hannah~
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Sunday
Tune in on Sunday for a special treat. I won't be online, but I've scheduled something for you, and I want to hear what you think of it.
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
Redemption
This is a short story I wrote for a challenge. It's quite personal, but I decided to share it here anyway. :) Comments welcome and encouraged.
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I wander down the streets. The rain beats upon my back, and the cold seeps into my bones. I'm alone. There's nothing else to it. People crowd about me, but I'm invisible in their eyes. I'm alone.
Miserably I allow myself to be pushed about by the milling crowd. What's the point in resisting? It wouldn't do any good to try and resist. I'm not strong enough for that, and when you've gone along with the crowd all you life, it becomes an instinct.
Wait. Have I actually been on these streets for fifteen long years? Where has all the time gone? I shrug. Why care about the time anyway if nothing is ever going to change?
It's always dark here on these streets of...I'm not sure where. I was never taught where I lived, and I never cared to learn. But wherever this might be, the sun never shines. I'm not sure where I even learned the word "sun." It definitely shouldn't be in the vocabulary of a boy who's never seen it. Or maybe I have. Things get messed up with me. Just one day leading into the next until years are melded together into a seamless block of time.
As I trek down the asphalt, I notice a keyhole, a soft beam of light filtering out of it. Whenever I pass by this keyhole, something leaps withing me. I think some would call what I feel "hope." I just call it strange.
Today, something is different. The keyhole seemed to draw me to it. An odd feeling rushes over me. It's like I belong somewhere. I've never belonged anywhere, and I don't think I ever will.
Unable to resist it's draw, I approach the hole. I've seen it so many times before, but never have I seen it up close.
The light emanating from the keyhole is soft and warm. Although it's not much, it seems to wrap me in welcoming arms. I don't want to leave. If I step away, I fear the comforting sensation will dissipate, and I never want it to leave. Never in my young life have I felt such peace.
Suddenly, the light flickers. A voice is murmuring, and the door around the keyhole begins to move. More of the warm light floods out, now rushing through the opening between door and frame. But this time I'm scared. Terrified is more like it. I can't run. Can't move. My knees lock, and I stare in fear as a face appears in the crack.
Then the door is flung wide open and arms reach out for me. I give a strangled cry, choked by the crippling fright that overwhelms me.
A voice breaks through the haze of fear. It's gentle and calm. It tells me I have nothing to fear and that I'm safe. Can I trust it?
I choose to trust. I've never trusted someone before. Actually, maybe I have. I trusted that one person long ago. So long ago that I hardly remember it anymore. That was before all this happened. Everything before then is pretty much erased from memory. I’d trusted, and look where that got me.
Slowly, I reach my hand toward the one stretching toward me. It's strong and pulls me in with ease. The smile on my rescuer is broad and welcoming. He says something to me, but I don't comprehend it. I'm too enraptured by the sensation of human touch without the intent of just brushing me aside.
Now I notice the rest of the room, bathed in that wonderful light. There are boys and girls much like myself. Looking at them, I realize how dirty I am, and blush. The touch of warmth in my cheeks feels good, even if it's out of shame and embarrassment.
The man smiles at me, intense joy evident in his face. He leads me to a side room where a wooden basin stands, filled with bubbly water.
A shadow falls across the room, and a voice booms out. He's speaking to my rescuer, and I think he's asking why I'm so dirty. In shame, I shrink back, wishing desperately that I could disappear. I feel so dirty, so defiled. I could never live in the home of one whose very presence oozes purity.
My rescuer steps forward and stands over me. I can’t believe my ears as I hear him tell that beautiful figure that he wants me. That he’s going to take away my dross. How would someone want me? I’m nothing but a dirty child, left on his own to die. People aren’t supposed to care about me.
The words of my savior seem to work magic. The figure, once so terrifying in it’s purity now bends down to me. He - I’m pretty sure it’s a he - extends his hand and touches.
He doesn’t flinch as his skin comes in contact with me, but I do. He asks me why, and I reply, my voice quivering, that I’m filthy. That I’m going to stain his hands.
He shakes his head, a warm smile spreading across his features. Unbelieving, I listen to him say that I’m perfectly clean. Afraid that I’ll be disappointed, I let my gaze ease down to my clothes. I gasp. They’re perfectly white.
Then I realize that my rescuer is crouching beside me, and I’m surprised once again. He’s dirty. All the dust and soot from my clothing has somehow been transferred to him.
As he reaches out and hugs me, he whispers, "Welcome to the family." He goes on to tell me that he'd been drawing me to that keyhole for so long, and hoping I'd respond.
The holy man I learn now is the king, draws me into the next room. A table sits in the center, and around it are chairs, both empty and filled. He leads me to a chair with a name engraved on it. Is that my name carved in that wood? I think it was a long time ago, but I haven't ever been called by a name since...well that's longer than I can remember.
Awkwardly, I settle myself into my seat, head down. I'm too shy to look up. Eventually, however, curiosity gets the better of me, and I look up. All of the others seated at the table appear just as insecure as me, and some of my apprehension filters away.
Then we all stand as the door opens, blinding light flooding into the room. In the doorway stands a brilliant figure. I feel compelled to bow, and I bend low, even falling to my knees. I know instinctively that it's the King, and that he and my rescuer are one. His presence commands authority, and I think all of us in the room feel it.
As he lifts his hands, I realize he is my savior, only more beautiful. He's perfectly clean now, unlike the last time I saw him. Even though he's so bright, I mostly notice just one thing: the scars on his palms, and I know they're for me.
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I wander down the streets. The rain beats upon my back, and the cold seeps into my bones. I'm alone. There's nothing else to it. People crowd about me, but I'm invisible in their eyes. I'm alone.
Miserably I allow myself to be pushed about by the milling crowd. What's the point in resisting? It wouldn't do any good to try and resist. I'm not strong enough for that, and when you've gone along with the crowd all you life, it becomes an instinct.
Wait. Have I actually been on these streets for fifteen long years? Where has all the time gone? I shrug. Why care about the time anyway if nothing is ever going to change?
It's always dark here on these streets of...I'm not sure where. I was never taught where I lived, and I never cared to learn. But wherever this might be, the sun never shines. I'm not sure where I even learned the word "sun." It definitely shouldn't be in the vocabulary of a boy who's never seen it. Or maybe I have. Things get messed up with me. Just one day leading into the next until years are melded together into a seamless block of time.
As I trek down the asphalt, I notice a keyhole, a soft beam of light filtering out of it. Whenever I pass by this keyhole, something leaps withing me. I think some would call what I feel "hope." I just call it strange.
Today, something is different. The keyhole seemed to draw me to it. An odd feeling rushes over me. It's like I belong somewhere. I've never belonged anywhere, and I don't think I ever will.
Unable to resist it's draw, I approach the hole. I've seen it so many times before, but never have I seen it up close.
The light emanating from the keyhole is soft and warm. Although it's not much, it seems to wrap me in welcoming arms. I don't want to leave. If I step away, I fear the comforting sensation will dissipate, and I never want it to leave. Never in my young life have I felt such peace.
Suddenly, the light flickers. A voice is murmuring, and the door around the keyhole begins to move. More of the warm light floods out, now rushing through the opening between door and frame. But this time I'm scared. Terrified is more like it. I can't run. Can't move. My knees lock, and I stare in fear as a face appears in the crack.
Then the door is flung wide open and arms reach out for me. I give a strangled cry, choked by the crippling fright that overwhelms me.
A voice breaks through the haze of fear. It's gentle and calm. It tells me I have nothing to fear and that I'm safe. Can I trust it?
I choose to trust. I've never trusted someone before. Actually, maybe I have. I trusted that one person long ago. So long ago that I hardly remember it anymore. That was before all this happened. Everything before then is pretty much erased from memory. I’d trusted, and look where that got me.
Slowly, I reach my hand toward the one stretching toward me. It's strong and pulls me in with ease. The smile on my rescuer is broad and welcoming. He says something to me, but I don't comprehend it. I'm too enraptured by the sensation of human touch without the intent of just brushing me aside.
Now I notice the rest of the room, bathed in that wonderful light. There are boys and girls much like myself. Looking at them, I realize how dirty I am, and blush. The touch of warmth in my cheeks feels good, even if it's out of shame and embarrassment.
The man smiles at me, intense joy evident in his face. He leads me to a side room where a wooden basin stands, filled with bubbly water.
A shadow falls across the room, and a voice booms out. He's speaking to my rescuer, and I think he's asking why I'm so dirty. In shame, I shrink back, wishing desperately that I could disappear. I feel so dirty, so defiled. I could never live in the home of one whose very presence oozes purity.
My rescuer steps forward and stands over me. I can’t believe my ears as I hear him tell that beautiful figure that he wants me. That he’s going to take away my dross. How would someone want me? I’m nothing but a dirty child, left on his own to die. People aren’t supposed to care about me.
The words of my savior seem to work magic. The figure, once so terrifying in it’s purity now bends down to me. He - I’m pretty sure it’s a he - extends his hand and touches.
He doesn’t flinch as his skin comes in contact with me, but I do. He asks me why, and I reply, my voice quivering, that I’m filthy. That I’m going to stain his hands.
He shakes his head, a warm smile spreading across his features. Unbelieving, I listen to him say that I’m perfectly clean. Afraid that I’ll be disappointed, I let my gaze ease down to my clothes. I gasp. They’re perfectly white.
Then I realize that my rescuer is crouching beside me, and I’m surprised once again. He’s dirty. All the dust and soot from my clothing has somehow been transferred to him.
As he reaches out and hugs me, he whispers, "Welcome to the family." He goes on to tell me that he'd been drawing me to that keyhole for so long, and hoping I'd respond.
The holy man I learn now is the king, draws me into the next room. A table sits in the center, and around it are chairs, both empty and filled. He leads me to a chair with a name engraved on it. Is that my name carved in that wood? I think it was a long time ago, but I haven't ever been called by a name since...well that's longer than I can remember.
Awkwardly, I settle myself into my seat, head down. I'm too shy to look up. Eventually, however, curiosity gets the better of me, and I look up. All of the others seated at the table appear just as insecure as me, and some of my apprehension filters away.
Then we all stand as the door opens, blinding light flooding into the room. In the doorway stands a brilliant figure. I feel compelled to bow, and I bend low, even falling to my knees. I know instinctively that it's the King, and that he and my rescuer are one. His presence commands authority, and I think all of us in the room feel it.
As he lifts his hands, I realize he is my savior, only more beautiful. He's perfectly clean now, unlike the last time I saw him. Even though he's so bright, I mostly notice just one thing: the scars on his palms, and I know they're for me.
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